June 14 and June 22, 1979
Jeffrey MacDonald's hypnosis session with Dr. William Kroger
Log of MacDonald Videotape
I'm reading - It's Mickey Spillane - It's almost 2 - 2 a.m. - And I turned the FM off - Get ready for bed - Kristie is in the bed - Colette's on her left side - She rolls over to her right side - Kristie starts to move - The bed's wet - Kristie wet the bed - I pick up Kristie and her bottle - Bring her to her room - Tuck her in - She's okay - I get a blanket - Go to the couch - After two - It's late - I lay down and go to sleep.
What's going on here? - What the hell are you people doing in my house?
What are you assholes doing here? - I start to get up. What the - Are you assholes doing here? - I see a girl - She says acid is rain - acid is rain - The black guy is going to hit me - He's got something in his hand - I am trying to get up - He does hit me - On the head - I am going back on the couch - My head hurts - I hear Colette - I hear my wife - Jeff - Jeff - Why - Why are they - Why are they doing this to me? - She's screaming, Jeff, help me - Jeff stop them.
He's moving toward to me - I'm trying to get up - The blanket is holding me down - I'm trying to get up - What the - Are you assholes doing in my house?
A girl's voice says - Acid is groovy, kill the pigs. - I said - What the - Acid is groovy?
A black guy standing there - He's raising something - I can't see it - It's behind him - He's raising something.
He's going to hit me - I hear the girl say - Acid is groovy - Kill the pigs.
Colette is screaming - I said - Get the - Out of here you assholes.
I hear Kimmy screaming - Daddy - Daddy - I hear Kimmy - I say - Kimmy I'll help you - I'll help you Kimmy - Kimmy is - Daddy - Daddy - Daddy - Daddy.
This - Is going to hit me - It's behind his shoulder, behind his right shoulder - I'm pushing up - I'm pushing up with my right hand and my left hand is up - These assholes - What are they doing here? - I've got to move forward so the black guy can't hit me so much - It's little punches - I grab hold of one of their shirt and pull myself up - The guy on the right - I grab his shirt - I'm pulling myself up - The creep in the middle - The little punk in the middle is punching me in the chest - He's a big doper - There's no question about it.
There's a girl between the two white guys - Acid is rain - I don't understand this - What the - Are they doing in my house - One guy is punching is punching me and the black guy is going to hit me with a club.
He's trying to hit me - My left arm hurts like crazy - He hit me in the left arm and shoulder - He's going to hit me again - It's just something swing - It hits me in the left hand and in the left upper arm - And it knocks me back flat on the couch again.
I've got to get up - I can't get up - I can't help - I can't help - I've got to get up - I can't - What the - Is going on - I can't - What is going on - I've got to get up - I'm still on the couch - I've got to get up - I'm still trying to get again now - I'm trying to get back up - The blanket is still up - I'm trying to pull it off with my right hand - The guy on the right is still punching me - The black guy swings again and this time I grab his arm - I've got his arm - I reach over with my right arm and I've got his arm.
He's got an army jacket on - He's got six stripes - Three- Three -V's on the top and one rocker on the bottom - It's black - I can't see well - It's a green jacket and the rocker - That's all I see and I'm holding on to his lower right arm and he's trying to jerk it out - I've got his hand - It's a weird glove - It's rough - I - I've got to fight - I've got to push this guy off - I can't let him hit me in the head with that club.
OK - I've got it - I've got his hand - They are worker rubber gloves - Gardening gloves or dishwasher gloves - Coarse - They go under the - The army jacket - I can't see the fingers - I have his hand - His fingers are wrapped around the club - It's a pretty big hand - Both my hands have his hands.
I'm getting punched in the head and - And - The right side of the head, the right chest - And the right arm -They are jerking me towards - They are jerking me towards the end of the couch - I'm trying to jerk the club away from this guy so I can use the club - I'm trying to jerk it away - I'm jerking on his hand and my left hand is sliding back on the club - I'm jerking - Something's in my way now - There's something over my head - There's something they are jerking on me you know - and I'm pushing on them and I'm jerking on the club all at once - Something is in my way - I can't push back at the two white guys - I can't push back - Well - Something is over my hands - My hands are all bound up - I can't pull as well - I can't push the white guys as well - And I can't pull on the club as well - They are wrapped up in something.
Can't get up - It's hard to get up now - I'm trying to get up - Can't get the - Blanket off my feet - It's an afghan - Can't get my feet out.
He's going to hit me again - I can't let him hit me in the head again - He's going to swing at me again - His arms are behind his right shoulder - He's going to hit me again - He swings something at me - He hit - My left arm and my left head - I've got his arm - I'm holding on to his arm so he can't hit me again - Head hurts - What the - Is going on here - Who are these guys?
I can't figure out what is going on - Why - Why is my wife screaming?
I've got his arm - He's trying to jerk it away - I'm sliding off his arm - If I let go - He is going to hit me again - I'm sitting up - I'm being jerked to the end of the couch - Two guys are punching me - They are pulling me to the end of the couch - I'm trying to push them away - I've got one guy's jacket and I'm still holding the guy's arm - They're pulling me to the end of the couch by my shirt - I can't see them - I'm all bound up - My pajama top is all around my arms - It's around my hands - I used it partially as a shield - He's going to hit me again.
They are punching me in the chest - I've got a terrific pain in my right chest - I see this girl between the two white guys - She's skinny - She looks wasted - She's standing there between the two white guys - There's a light on her face - She's blonde. - She's saying, - Acid is groovy, kill the pigs - Acid is groovy - Kill the pig - Acid and rain - Flickering light on her face - They're punching me in the chest - I'm trying to push away now - I've got a pain in my right chest - I said What the - Are you doing?
I'm bound up - My arms are all wrapped up - I can't do anything - I'm still trying to kick the - Blanket off my feet and my hands are bound up - I - I - I - Can't do anything - I'm trying to push them away.
My hands aren't free - They're not free and I can't do anything well - They're punching me in the chest - I've got a terrific pain in my right chest - My - Head hurts - I've got someone's hand - My hands are still bound up but I've a hand - I saw a blade - The - pain isn't a punch - I got stabbed, small knife - It's been pulled back - I'm going to get stabbed again - I can't get my hands free - I've got someone's arm - I don't think it is the same arm - I think the guy is going to stab me again - And the black guy still got the club.
My head isn't clear - I've got a - Pain in my head - They are punching me in my right chest - Both guys - Both guys - This guy's bigger than the guy in the middle - I think I've got his arm - He's trying to jerk his arm away - I'm trying to pull it away - I'm trying to pull it away - I've got both his arms - He's trying to stab me - There's a blade - I can't see a blade - He's trying to jerk his arms away - I know he - I know it - I know he's trying to pull his hands away - Someone is punching me - I got one arm - They are punching me.
Stomach - Stomach - Pain - I can't keep - Get a good hold - This guy's left arm - I've got - I'm trying to hold on to his left arm - He's trying to jerk it away - He's bigger He He's stronger - I can see this bigger guy - He's bigger - He's bigger and stronger - I've got his left arm - He's bigger and stronger - His hands are slippery - They feel slippery - I've got his left arm - I know he is going to stab me if I let go - I can't keep holding on - He's pulling his left arm away - I can't keep pulling away - My - head hurts.
I can't keep holding - My - Pajama top is wrapped all around - I can't free my arms - I can't keep his arm away and I can't get a good grip - Someone is punching me in the abdomen and the chest and I can't keep pushing away - Someone hit me with a club - In the left arm - I don't know what to do - I am trying to push them away - I've got to get my hands free - I've got to keep them away - Still trying to push them away - Acid is groovy, kill the pig - It's all I hear - No sounds - Acid is groovy - Kill the pig.
They're going to kill me - I'm trying to push them away - The arm is slipping away - I've got the hand - I can't keep on long - It's slippery - I can't keep holding on it's slippery - It feels wet - I can't keep my hands - Don't have a good grip - My pajama top is sliding over - I can't keep holding on - I can't do it - He's jerking his arm away - I'm sliding forward.
I'm sliding forward - I'm sliding forward - I - see - I see - A knee - See a bare knee - My arms they're so heavy - I can't get them up - I saw a knee - Wh - Why - I can't tell - What the - Is happening?
I see - The top - The top of a boot - The boot - Right after the knee - Bare leg - Top of a boot - White leg - Top of a boot - High boot - Light brown - Looks wet - Looks wet - Light brown it looks wet - Girl's leg - What the - I can't see - What is - My head hurts My - head.
I can't my head - I can't - I'm moving - I - I got hit in the head - It's dark - One split second - One split - One split second its dark - The steps - One split - split second - Steps - Coming up - Steps coming up - At my waist.
My hands are under me - I can't get my hands out - I can't get them out - My hands are under my chest - My chest hurts - I'm on the floor - My head hurts - My head hurts - I can't - I can't think - I feel cold - On the floor - My arms are under me - Face down - They are folded up under my chest - Pajama tops are on my wrist and hands - I smell wax on the floor - Wooden floor Floor wax.
My teeth are chattering - My head hurts - I see - Can't clear my head - I can smell the floor Remembering - I heard screams - It's quiet - I can't hear anything except my teeth - I'm getting up - I'm going to go see Colette - I go down the hallway - My head hurts like crazy and I feel like I'm going to pass out - I'm in the hallway - I feel like I can't breathe.
My head hurts - In front of the bathroom - Just walking into the bedroom - There's something on the floor - I can't see well - Colette - She's leaning against the green chair - Can't get the pajama top off my hands - I'm trying to find some light - I've got the light on - I've got to get the pajama top off - I'm pulling on it to get it off my hands - It's coming off - Off yes - Looking at Colette - She's bloody - There's a knife in her chest - I pulled the knife out - I lay her on the floor - I give her mouth to mouth - The air is coming out of her chest - The air is coming out of her chest - It's not working - Checking for pulse - She doesn't have a pulse - I remember Kimmy was screaming - I got up to go see Kimmy.
She looks bloody too - She's my little girl - She looks so funny - She looks dead - I've checked her left carotid - No pulse - I tilt her head back -I - I'm giving Kimmy mouth to mouth - I can't see if her chest is rising - It doesn't - It sounds like bubbles - I think there's bubbles in her - In her neck - I can't figure out what's going on - Can't figure out why - Why she's - Why she's this way.
I've got to see if Kristen Kristie - you better be okay - She's across the hall - She looks pale - She's in her bed - She's facing me - She looks pale - She doesn't - She doesn't look good - She doesn't look like she is breathing - I have to tilt her head up to feel her pulse - Her right carotid - I can't feel a pulse - I have to give her mouth-to-mouth - I don't think her chest is rising though - I don't think it's working on Kristie either - Going back to Colette - She looks terrible - She's got blood all over - I check for a femoral pulse - I can't believe - I can't find a pulse - It's my wife - Covering her chest - Something from the green chair - I can't see what it is - Seems like a towel - I picked up my pajama top - I put it on Colette - I go to the phone I pick up - I dial zero - An operator Yes - This is Captain MacDonald - I need help - People are dying - We've been stabbed - 544 Castle Drive - Hurry - There's people been stabbed - We're dying - And MPs and ambulances - Send help - We need help - She says is it on the post or off post - I don't know - I can't figure out why she asked me that - I said it's on post - I threw the phone down - Standing at Colette's feet - I notice door is opened - The back door - Out - Outside door - It's cold out - And wet - I looked around to see if I could see people - Dark - My feet feel wet - I can see the grass - Winter grass - It's not green - I can see the sidewalk - It looks wet - Can't see anyone - I can't figure out what's going on - I can't figure out how to help Colette - I walk back down the hallway - I don't know - I don't know what to do - Standing in the hallway - I can't figure out what - What - I can't figure it out - My chest is hurting - Can't breath well - Can't - I can't clear my head.
I look down at my chest- I can see my chest bubbling a little - I go into the bathroom - I look in the mirror - I look at my head - The bruise at the left temple - Skin is broken a little - About two inches across - Doesn't look like it feels - There's blood smeared on my forehead - There's blood around my lips - On my hands - It's all over both hands - My stomach - There's a little bit around my chest.
I washed my hands - Go back to Colette - I picked up my pajama top - To see if her chest looks as bad as I first saw it - It looks horrible - She's - There's wounds all over her - I hugged her - I told her - The kids would be okay - I told her the kids would be okay- I'm kneeling next to her - I put my pajama top back - I decided to check the kids one more time - I can't believe it.
I've got to get up - I can't breathe well though - My head hurts - I get up - I have to push myself up - I got to - Got to check Kimmy - Kimmy is my little girl - I've got to see her.
I go back to see her - I give her mouth-to-mouth - Kimmy is limp - Kimmy looks terrible - I pick her up - My left hand is under her shoulder - Picking her up towards me - My right arm is under her neck - I give Kimmy mouth-to-mouth - It doesn't feel right - There's no resistance to her breathing - The air must be escaping - It must be coming out of her neck or chest - I put her back - She's got - She's got wounds in her upper chest or neck - It's not going to work - I can't help her Mouth-to-mouth won't work - Check her pulse - I checked her femoral pulse - There's no pulse - I pick her up - Pick up bed clothes - Her bed clothes - And lay them on her - And go see Kristie.
I have to see Kristie - Kristie has to be okay - She's in her bed - I'm in Kristie room - I just patted her head and told her it would be okay - I told Kristie that - Everything would - Would be okay - I'd get help - She'd be okay - I put my right hand behind her back - She - I reach across her and checked her right carotid - There's no pulse -Straighten out her blankets - Went to call for help - I'm in the kitchen - pickup the phone - Someone on the phone - Woman said Is this Captain MacDonald?
Yes - I started yelling at her - People have been stabbed - We need help - We need police - MPs Ambulances - Send ambulances - Hurry - We are all dying - I'll connect you she says - A male voice says it's sergeant someone - Can't make it out - I say send - Send help - I said need help - We need everything Ambulances - MPs Police Help - We're dying we need help - Jesus Christ send some help - 544 Castle Drive - Yelling to someone - Make that ASAP to Womack - I dropped the phone - I'm standing there.
It's quiet - Looking at my hands - My head hurts - I can't clear my head - I can't - I can't - I can't think of what to do - My head is pounding - I can't - Reach up and touch the - The back of my head to feel why it's pounding so much - I have - I have to - Go be with Colette - In case In case I can help when the ambulance comes - I'm laying next to Colette - That's it.
Someone is giving me mouth-to-mouth - They are blowing air into my mouth - It's harder to breathe I am trying Trying to push them away - I started pushing them away - There's a bunch of people - They are all over me - A bunch of MPs helmets over me - Shiny helmets - White stripe - Lots of people yelling and screaming - He said what happened?
I said check my wife - Help me - Help kids - But please - Check my wife and kids - Please - He said you'll be okay - Everyone was yelling and screaming - Christ there fifteen people yelling and screaming - What happened?
Who did it?
Where are they?
How many were there?
What happened - Jesus Christ don't move that - Don't touch her - Put it down - Put it down - Check the other rooms - Put that down you asshole - Everyone is yelling - The guy over me - He said what happened?
He said are you a doctor - Someone said he's a doctor - This guy said are you a doctor - I said yeah - I'm a Captain MacDonald - He said what happened?
Look at my wife - Jesus Christ - Look at my wife - He said it will be OK - Relax we'll help you - He was trying to help me.
He was pushing me back down.
I'm laying next to Colette - He was pushing me down but my head - On her shoulder - I didn't want my head to be on her shoulder - I - I wanted to get up and tell them what to do to help - I said help my kids.
Someone said - Jeez, Jesus Christ - The kids are - They're just like this - I said - Help them - He said - It's okay - They'll be okay We're all checking them - Someone said I got to call for back up - This is too - Big for us.
There's a lot of noise and people are yelling get back-up - I can hear pounding - Pounding footsteps - He trying to push me down - I'm trying to push him away - I didn't want to lay on Colette.
They had to help Colette - I didn't want to lay on her - I'm trying to push off and I grab him by the shirt and he drags me away - He's trying to help me - He pulls me away - Pulls me about a foot away from Colette towards the doorway - I said - Gee - Jesus you've got to do mouth to mouth - No - No one's doing anything right - Except the guy trying to help me - I'm okay - I said - Help the kids - He says the kids are okay - I'm - I'm trying to think - They didn't - They didn't look okay to me - They didn't look - They didn't look okay.